I WAS A STRANGE CHILD there are no words to describe you. except maybe: strange. unique. different. what kind of child were you? (brought you by april)

another day another dollar. slept well…dreams have returned to normal i guess….at least normal as could be for me. still no response from the email, i’m starting to think it was a pretty big mistake, but it was just something i needed out of my head. it is too hard for me to hold hatred […]

i try so hard….i bottle up the pain, i bottle up the anger…i tried to bottle it up the past few days, and all it takes is 5 seconds. 5 unbelieveable seconds…. just 5 seconds in her arms to make it all go away, 5 seconds to make me feel exactly what i’ve felt all […]

i miss having someone call me at work, i miss having someone bring me lunch, i miss having someone to call if i’m bored, i miss having someone to come home to when i get off work at night. i don’t need these things to be happy. i don’t need them to be complete. i […]

i forgot to mention, i also had a dream of the she-hag, either last night or night before, i don’t remember. she professed her undying feelings for me, she admitted her unhappiness and pain, she admitted that i was the best thing she had and she simply threw it away. she wanted me back….i don’t […]

so i dreamt of another woman…i can’t pronounce her name though, i said it the whole time in the dream, something so odd and so unique, it was like t’something, t’eiga or something that sounded like that. anyway, it was like i was in a different toys r us or something, and she was part […]

some things just aren’t wordable….some things just aren’t meant to be expressed. there are certain types of pain that slide through your body and cause you to rethink your current situation, that pain can be pleasant and wanted, or uneasy and mysterious. i had a pain creep its way through my chin and neck and […]

so i get a phone call from my cable company…i decide to answer the phone and the dude says “i’m scheduled to shut off your cable modem by the end of the month from lack of payment” …… nice. and how do i pay my bill? through my debit card…..which pulls straight from my account……..and […]