Monthly Archives: June 2006

only if…

If I smiled at you, would you smile back? If I stared in your eyes, would you blink? If I touched your hand, would you blush? If I pulled you close to me, would you step away? If I breathed on your neck, would you tremble? If my lips brushed yours, would you gasp? Would […]

tell me what to say…

(black lab) Tell me what to say And I will say it to you… I take one for the heartbreak One for the headache Two for the constant tears I take one for the blindness One for the foolishness Trying to keep you here I would stop waiting Stop crying Stop breathing in, too While […]

6-16-99

6-16-99   Well…what an incredible set of events.  Lo is in the hospital, fucked up over ME, and I’m starting to get strange feelings for D, something about her, but yet I still have incredible guilt for Lo, but she’s right, no one wants a “crazy girl.”  I don’t think I could deal with her […]

6-14-99

6-14-99   Well, missed several dream experiences lately – my third eye seems to be wanting to open…some strange stuff lately.  I found out danielle’s middle name is Lee, yet another “coincidence” I guess.  Strange third eye vision last night of stone walls.  Dreams becoming more vivid and aware…perhaps pure and constant lucidity is near.  […]

and SHE may never know….

    just how special she really is.  i had a great time. not many people can make me ignore my cell phone in the other room for 5 hours, i have mini panic attacks if it is out of my sight for 5 seconds.  it was a nice feeling to have the rest of […]

storming the castle?

2-1-00   Came to, started resonating, became very intense around my forehead, it became hard to focus, and I felt threatened.  I could feel something watching me, but I couldn’t find it.  Eventually I got my eyes open to see the reflection in the TV of a creature sitting on my bed watching me.  A […]

the dog, the lady, and the pink mouse

Dream experience, circa 1998.   …in bed, lady walks in asking questions and a man followed with her.  Later this thing, looked like a dead dog asked “is it in Heaven?”  I felt a swelling in my chest and then patterned hard breathings from me (almost like a dry bark) then the numbing of the […]

The Newcomer

Oct 1994 high school newspaper     -The Newcomer-                 Victoria arrived in town at about 6 AM.  The people were all still asleep.  She drove to a desolate, scroungy motel and checked in.  The owner gave her a funny look, but she knew he would get his.             She went in her […]

Indiscriminate

Oct 1994, school newspaper (so, ya, paragraphs are formatted pretty short for space) Indiscriminate               Ivan was about 25 years old and he lived in the woods by himself.  He lived off the land and loved it.  His solitary life was enjoyable for a long time, but he soon started getting lonely.  He decided […]