6-16-99

Well…what an incredible set of events.  Lo is in the hospital, fucked up over ME, and I’m starting to get strange feelings for D, something about her, but yet I still have incredible guilt for Lo, but she’s right, no one wants a “crazy girl.”  I don’t think I could deal with her now, or later.  It was great hanging out with D last night.  I feel very comfortable with and around her.  I worry that the feelings are not growing in a detrimental way, its too early for this.  And what if she’s my lesson?  She IS engaged, and I can foresee my luck with her being the best chick ever, and then BAM, he’s out of jail and I’m history.  It would serve me right though, I guess.