i finally found the cause of my change, i started to FEEL. my whole problem with being who i am or who i was is simply that i chose to validate others for those things i appreciate. it is time to shut my mouth about how someone looks, about how i feel when they do something nice, about what my mind says when something nice is said….it’s time to let these things go. my transformation proved interesting, i’ve understood human frailty and pain, it’s time to return. people appreciate a well placed compliment, but not every other sentence. i’ve made this mistake, and i’ve made the mistake of speaking my mind too many times. i hurt all those i touch, i cause pain to all those i’m around, drama follows me like a storm cloud, and i’m sure i bring it all on myself. i’m stepping back, it is time to be myself again.