so, i’m crying. i hate this, i hate the thick feeling in my throat, i hate my eyes drying out, the tears sliding down my face, i hate everything about it, i’m better than this, and that makes me arrogant. i’m going to disappear for a while, i’m off to exist in my own world for once, without the interference of emotion and love, i wish to find emptiness and blackness within myself, and i wish to learn existence with lack of human touch.