i miss having someone call me at work, i miss having someone bring me lunch, i miss having someone to call if i’m bored, i miss having someone to come home to when i get off work at night. i don’t need these things to be happy. i don’t need them to be complete. i don’t need them to feel special. i want them to simply make me smile more often. i have no plans tonight (thur) for any of you that want to visit. company is always nice, although i’m not going to be a replacement for anything that may be missing…not tonight. i don’t have the strength to do it.