had a veritable blast last night….went to bennigans again, they have some great coffee! ended up looking for something odd to do, so we went to oru and checked out the hugeass hands…we found the coolest raincoat but we couldn’t find the strength to take it…it was a yellow one that said “security” on the back…what a find, but we can’t take something from holy land like that….even if Oral is a crook. we soon ended up downtown…we found our way to the center of the universe, played around there for a bit, then made our way to some decrepit buildings and such…playing “i dare you…” with all the busted up windows and openings. i stuck my hands and my head in a few places i probably shouldn’t have…hehe…never saw anything strange though. old buildings are a bit creepy i guess, but its not like i was gonna see a ghost or anything. and if i did? well, i’ve always seen worse in my dreams anyway….it’d be nice to see something for REAL once in a while…. we eventually found bartlett square and walked around there a bit…the fountains were drained 🙁 we did find the 2 big fountains out there too, and being insane, we climbed inside and got SOAKING wet. i must say…rich looked great in a wet tshirt….or was that my other friend….or was it me? anyway, so then i was “urged” to go into the second fountain, thus finishing my SOAKING from head to toe….i just stood there sucking in air as the cold water splashed against my skin….oh jeez it was so enlightening and painful all at once. we hoped and hoped for rain, but never got it the way we wanted it….finally when we started back to the car it started pouring….but it was that damn stinging rain, like it was trying to pierce our flesh it was so fast. so we made it back here and i ate rice a roni….the end of a magical eve. last night was intriguing….amidst my detachment and blocking of emotion i found a part of me that was becoming over-aware of so many things around me….i could see things differently, my eyes were following the slightest to the fastest movement of objects nearby, i could sense the temperature changes in the air and the wind, i could feel the surges from the plants and trees…and i must say, the giant hands especially gave off strong vibes….i felt so energized last night i kept myself a bit separate from our group, i was nearly out of focus and i couldn’t keep myself an active part of the conversation. everything was an intake for me, i wasn’t allowing anything to escape my grasp for once. i found beauty in all that i saw, i found power in all my surroundings, i found true emotion in all that i touched. such was the energetic strength last night that i was able to make someone “hear” the song in my head…sorry sweetie, you never heard the band anywhere but inside your own mind….and yes, every single part you were thinking of, i was singing at the same time in my head. coincidence? you know i don’t believe in coincidences. and no, i’m not gonna analyze why it happened, it just did. you decide what you want to believe it was. the rain was beautiful…i only wish i still had someone close to my heart to truly share the majesty of nature with…someone to hold hands and close our eyes as we shove our faces toward the sky as the raindrops fall across our faces….soon a creature will come along, soon a creature will realize i am here.