i had a WONDERFUL fucking night tonight, i couldn’t even explain it if i tried. things just felt so….i dunno, perfect. kinda makes me ecstatic and depressed all at once. the ecstatic outlives the depressed part though. i still find her beautiful in ever way….i don’t feel any comparison toward her, i don’t offer any judgement…things just simply “are” with this, and things are so contradictory as usual. i love it and hate it, i’m happy and sad, gleeful and hurt….all the things that require the other to exist….at least i can know there is an extreme to each feeling. thank you, thank you, thank you, for being who you are, entirely, incredibly, undoubtedly, instinctively. you are still welcome anytime, never hesitate….we always miss special moments if we hesitate.