i’ve had several wishes and desires for the past several months, and one of them i must say “technically” came true, i’ve wished for that someone to be here waiting for me when i got home, to see a car in the parking lot…the whole experience of not being utterly alone in this cold fucking realm, and it partially came true. i say partially, because it wasn’t true in the sense i wished it to be, but nonetheless, it was a happy feeling. that someone wasn’t waiting for “ME” but simply waiting for ‘me’ to get home to pick up some items that were left the other day. oh well, one blissful moment of ecstatic happiness, albeit misplaced and underappreciated, is still significant enough to put a thoughtful smile on my dreary (and clean shaven) face. perhaps next time. i don’t think i’m the only one…….