something truly incredible has happened recently, a sort of coming together of some things that have been going on for a while now. i finally talked to the aquarius on the phone, and we talked for like 2 hours and then several smaller phone calls through the evening. i can’t say i’ve talked to someone that really “gets it” as much as an aquarius, the only other one that does is danya, since she’s an aquarius as well. and of course there are those that say horoscopes and zodiacal information is all bullshit, but you can tell the difference in types of people based on their signs. my body and mind doesn’t really allow me to show much reaction, so i haven’t really “gotten excited” yet, but something within me is growing in anticipation to meet this person. things fell through last night, so today is the big day. i can only hope that i don’t allow myself to be so superficial and vain as i tend to be,i hope i don’t allow myself to fuck something up that could verily be a great experience. the only unfortunate repercussions from this whole event is that i’m ultimately going to hurt a lot of feelings in the process….feelings i never thought i would hurt, people i never thought i would damage. those of you that may be feeling this pain, please don’t….it was never intentional, and some things just happen differently than we expect them to happen. i am by no means in love with anyone, nor do i think i will allow myself to fall again. i’ve suffered too much pain at the hands of women lately to allow myself to feel those emotions. i think for now i want to stick with fascination and pure interest…nothing too serious. aquarians really are the only ones that can truly understand another aquarius. we’re the ones that are seen as odd, as unusual….the ones that are so strange and unlike anyone else….yet people feel some strange pull to us to try to relate and make sense of WHY we are such people. well, i can only say keep trying, you have to truly let go and allow yourself to become everything and nothing all in one swoop, allow yourself to belive everything you can hear and yet be so damn analytical that you believe nothing without undoubtable truth….. allow yourself to become one large, walking contradiction.