i can’t even put into words the air that surrounds my life now….things have become so much clearer…i feel like i’ve been on top of the world for the entire week, all because of one magical soul…i found my winged creature i’ve sought for so long, one that truly understands, one that truly sees with eyes unclouded. i feel like i have something to look forward to again, i no longer spend my days dreading going home to an empty apartment and just searching for something to do or someone to talk to, no more grasping for things that aren’t there…i have a reason to wake up, i have a reason to go to sleep…i can smile broadly once more for no apparent reason….oh the comments i’ll get now, since i’ll have that stupid grin on my face all the time…. so many damn things to say and so few words to honestly express them….a great deal of people now think i’m going to simply erase them from my life, but that is not true in any form, just because my time is shifting balance here and there doesn’t mean that i will be any less available as a true friend…i am here to listen to your sorrows, i am here to listen to your excitement…i am here to listen to all those things you may wish to say, and i will do so with an open heart. i’m not the most expressive person in the world, it is hard for me to show excitement and lively happiness, but it does exist, i wish i could show more of it! the way my skin tingles at her touch, the way my heart begins to race within close proximity of her…the melting of my soul when she stares in my eyes and merely says my name… why must a day only consist of 24 hours….i must get ready and leave for work…i hate the real world of responsibility….i can at least look forward to my realm of fairy tale happiness…i’ll get to go back to it tonight…