i figure it’s time for me to post something a bit more in depth than a simple “i’m having a great time” post….so here we go. it seems i have found myself in a remarkable predicament lately, the times that i thought would never end finally did, and the times i felt would never continue finally have returned. i have crossed paths with some incredible entities and people, and at times one could say that each encounter will always bring something increasingly more appealing than the last, but i can’t fully agree with that. for once i can now see with my true eyes, and my true eyes are fully open and i’ve seen what i’ve missed. i have touched several souls recently, and for this i thank you and offer my apology. i’ve caused pain, i’ve caused happiness, and i’ve only wished to cause SOMEthing. if you have gleamed anything from meeting me, then take it simply as that. i can be a good lesson or i can be a bad one, it is all in your perception. my touch seems to work only in extreme, i either turn things to gold or turn them to shit….and i never know which will happen. the examples i’ve seen, it appears that in one instance where one thing becomes gold, another turns to shit…every new feeling i find, another ends up fading. i make new friends and lose old ones…i hope this isn’t a trend that will continue, and i hope that i can find the medium to make room for everyone that i find important. i’ve known stacey for almost a month now, and our times together are simply amazing. i’ve found connections with people before, so those of you that feel i am being hasty, don’t disbelieve anything i may have told you in the past. if i told you i had a connection with you, i wasn’t lying or pretending. the connection i have found with stacey is one of magnitude that i’ve not before beheld. our personalities meld into one another like we were once a single soul, our thoughts are completed by each other, and when one struggles for a word to finish a sentence, the other picks up the slack and continues the thought without missing a beat. to this moment, i have never met another creature that has (or i have) complemented so well…things just seem so perfect, they seem so right, they seem so pure. i enjoy my time around her, i find myself missing her as if something in my heart has been separated and bound into hers, like a part of me is gone every time we are apart. sure, it sounds fanciful, it even sounds dreamy, and to most of you it sounds silly or stupid, and most of you feel i’m only going to make the same mistakes that i’ve made so many times in the past, but for once, i don’t think i will. she actually appreciates me on so many levels, she’s not one that will take advantage of what i’m offering her. i see her with my real eyes, and i believe she is seeing the same thing. i don’t have a day pass that i can’t say “i appreciate you for _____ and how you understand me so well.” and i hear the same thing from her. i am in a beautiful, blissful moment right now, and NONE of you are going to hurt my soul, none of you are going to change my belief. i am still the friend that you found, i am still the person you met. stop pretending like i’m so different. i love you.