i guess things are now nonexistent again, i keep transforming, i always feel a shove toward changing into something new. i bought tons of boxers yesterday, the most insane ones i could find along with cool ones too, but not like “cool guy” cool. fuck that shit. i don’t wanna look like some preppie yuppie larvae scum or something. and i think i’m gonna start my bottom ladder next week, go for 3 more piercings…call me insane now before i do it.