i can’t really express what is in my head right now…i don’t know the words. i looked at some old pics just now, and i guess it flooded a few things back that i wasn’t in the mood to notice. she was pretty, she was pure…and i have to remember, she was not for me. i’m sure i’d feel better knowing that we could be friends, but i still don’t think that it’s ever going to happen because of the current situation. i don’t want that level…it’s outside influences that would keep us from at least being close. whatever. im fucking tired.