nothing i can say that i haven’t said already… well, when it starts…in perpetuates… i’ve now pissed off or hurt MORE than one person, it seems a trend for this week…i wonder who else can be hurt by my words or actions now… i told you i’m calloused, cold-hearted and black-souled…but you people don’t believe me… the dream i had the other night, i don’t remember if i finished it and i don’t want to look and see…but it was about you, it was about lying on my couch…finishing the conversations we were having, staring at you and in your eyes, everything always seems calmer and clearer when i’m doing that…and finishing the moment that was so close to happening. perhaps i’m glad you saw what would happen and simply told me to “turn back around” as you did. i wish your views weren’t as fueled as they are…you say you don’t want to hurt me, but maybe that’s what i’m asking for…