i’m in love with ytou……fully and truly….i wish to God it werne’t true, but i know i am… and now i’m drunk, finally, the state i wanted to be in so i could be honest with myself…and now i can be…you are the most beautiful creature i’ve encoutntered lately, and you scare me beyond belief…i […]

nothing i can say that i haven’t said already… well, when it starts…in perpetuates… i’ve now pissed off or hurt MORE than one person, it seems a trend for this week…i wonder who else can be hurt by my words or actions now… i told you i’m calloused, cold-hearted and black-souled…but you people don’t believe […]

you’re right, i never should have mingled, i never should have interrupted, i never should have sent that desperate text message…

perhaps it was only a dream i needed to have. perhaps i didn’t even see you last night…maybe i imagined it all…the painful words, the belief that it would never be true, the complexity of me being who i am… maybe you’re right, maybe i’m fooling myself in thinking that i can step outside of […]

the world stops when i see you, everything around me simply disappears and fades into nothing…the only thing that exists is you and me, as i stare into your eyes and feel for your heart… stop me from feeling this way… i would treat you like a queen, like a goddess….all the things i’ve done […]

“Your The Reazon” (Twiztid) We haven’t come to the end of our journey This is just the begining The begining of what you ask? The begining of forever Through the eyes of many we are judged daily And although their hatred for use may seem great It will never surpass the love we pledge to […]

getting ready to play half life 2 for the first time….

my head swirls with a frenzy of emotion so close to the surface it’s intoxicating…..

who knows, who cares, who things, who believes, who breathes, who sighs, who shines, who withers, who stops, who runs, who fixes, who creates, who touches, who …really….matters….. where is my fucking ashtray sometimes i wish it were easier to cry, i wish it were easier to open the floodgates and empty all that sits […]