i’m in love with ytou……fully and truly….i wish to God it werne’t true, but i know i am… and now i’m drunk, finally, the state i wanted to be in so i could be honest with myself…and now i can be…you are the most beautiful creature i’ve encoutntered lately, and you scare me beyond belief…i neveer thought i’d find someone like you again, but i did…and now i can’t believe it’s true…. i don’twant to be this way, i doint want to lvoe you, i dont want to feel the way i do for you right now, i have caused so many problems, i have caused you to be unfaithful, i have caused y ou to vbe untrue…i have caused you tobe so many things i never wanted you to be, and now you are… i o9nly wish that you could close your eyes and see me for who i am, for what i am…a creaturewho has fallen for you so deeply that it doesnt matter what you are or what you have become, i only see you for who you truly can be, by my side, by my heart…a thing so wonderful and so pure that we can be happy…. but i fear it can never be true…you dont want to lvoe me, you dont want to face the things you ahve seen in your soul, you dont want to face the thigns you yhave seen in your heart… i am hnot the one you wish to have found, you want to fidnsomene so unlike me that it pains me, and will continue t9 pain me until you have pushed yourself so far from my thoughts that i wontthink the things that i believe to be so treu right now… i only wish that you could close your eeyes and see me for waht i am…to see me for who i truly know that i can be…someone to make you happy…someone to make you feel all those things you hold dear to your heart…sojmeone to trust, count on, and rely on, and even…believe in…someone that could be there for you when you feel the most vulnerable and the most n pain….i will be that for you if you only gave me that chance and that opportnity…but i hfear that it may never happen because yourthoughts tell you that i’m not the right thing for you to grasp…i’m not the rightthing for you to look toward in your life…you must find someoen that fits your persona and your ideals that you have worked so desperately to achieve…. i’ll not be this way for long…i must adapt much like the rest of you people, i must change myself into what i truly desire to be…and it seems unfortunate that you will never gaze upon me the way i truly gaze upon you….with no judgement and wiht no malice….i see your true inner light, and you are blinding to the pooint that i wish i hadnt known you existed…you exemplify all those things i never thought i would see in anothe rhumnag soul……you shall remain exalted above all the rest, i will remember you, even when you push me farthest away from y ou….i shall continue tobelieve that you are special and you deserve something like me….as i feel i deserve something ilike you…. kiss me once and i will show you the words i say are true, i shall show you the things i know and belive…all ythesee things will happen if only you would close your eeyes and believe that i undoubtedly exist….your mind will see it, your heart will see it…but your mind tells you diffreerently, please see me with evertying else and stop believing that i will never be the kind that oculd make you smile on a rainy day…the kind that can make you feel warm inside when the world is against you…the pers0on that can make you understand that love can be painful and real….i will show you in my heart if you would only close your eyes and let me prove myself…….. i am in love with you……if i am not allowed to make you happy then i can only hope and dream tha tyou will find someoen who can give you all the things i wish you would let me show you…if you would only allow your lips to touch mine for the brieftest instant perhaps you would believe me…. i cry and watch you stay so distant….