there has always been a pattern in my life, i do these things to myself…karma was waiting to stab me on what i had done, but i acted like i didnt fucking care…and now it’s just coming back at me. its what i get for fucking with people’s lives i suppose. i’ve been crying all […]

again….when things are great…why do we constantly look for something different? is it because we don’t believe things are as good as they really are? or is it that we don’t trust ourselves to handle the fragile situations…. maybe this just wasn’t the right time and place.

and i didnt get my blueberry cheesecake…..

im sitting here with my stomach wrenched…i hurt, i’m sad, i’m depressed, i have that upset feeling like i have lost something so dear to me…and i’m not sure i totally understand why. my head keeps filling with so many things that we’ve said to each other out of fear, anger, love, bitterness….and i’m so […]

Some of you people will never be ready for me…

i really enjoyed our time together tonight, it’s nice to share a nice moment again. i wish i knew what happened to cause things to go so sour, but perhaps i shouldn’t dwell on it, perhaps it’s time to just forget about all of it.

i just want things to go back to the way they were…where neither of us hurt…neither of us hurt each other…we had fun together, we laughed, smiled, giggled…where i could look at you and close the world around me and never be bothered by outside influence….. i want us to be happy again, together, in […]

Daily Love for January 29, 2005 Provided by Astrology.com Weekly Love Daily Flirt: You’ll surprise yourself with some weirdly out-of-character behavior — and you might attract the very person you’ve been eyeing all night. Daily Couples: You’ll surprise yourself with some entertainingly out-of-character behavior — and your lover will be most appreciative if you manage […]

Daily Overview for January 28, 2005 Provided by Astrology.com Daily Extended Forecast Quickie: Your mind has been on autopilot lately. Time to rev your mental engine. Overview: ‘Enraged’ might be too strong a word to describe your feelings, even if someone pushes the right buttons. Then again, if it’s someone who knows you, it might […]

ok, so i think about you regularly during the day, then you’re usually the last thing i think of when i go to sleep, we talk in my dreams, and then not only do i think of you when i wake up, but this morning…i reached over to the other side of my bed thinking […]