look at me…the eyes don’t lie…i can see what hides behind them. no one has ever been able to keep secrets from me when i peer into their soul. i’ve always been the same person you look at so gently, the same one you looked at so longingly.. i would be the one to do everything for her, and it’s hard for her to understand that someone would do something like that after such a short time…she’ll never understand the true nature of a creature like me, like an aquarius…one who would so diligently wait inside the shell of a world until my time comes to be that person…the one who tried stepping outside of the boundaries to do something unthinkable and unimaginable..the one who would open her soul and climb inside with her never understanding how it happened or why..especially when she protected herself so well against thigns like me…we have inexplicably shared parts of our essence that will never split, as much as i’ve wanted those parts back from all the others…and as much as they’ve wanted to separate from me…it will never happen…those parts are always intertwined and will never come undone..that’s they mystery of why you can’t find yourself slipping away from me and feeling ok with it…you want me around so badly it kills you to believe that it’s true…and you can’t explain why…and neither can i. sometimes bonds are stronger than words and understanding…they go way back and they go deeper than we can comprehend. she has a part of me that i will never get back, and i have a part of her that will never leave me. i dont want any regrets about anything…. and now i sleep, and i dream of only her, the thing i’ve dreamt about every night for the past several months…the thing i wish to touch only once more….