Monday, June 17th, 2002 6:29 pm fuck you. So here I sit, a pale comparison to all the beautiful things that now define your existence. All the things you so adamantly desired while with me are now the things that feverishly divide yourself from me. Is it status? Is it wealth? That isn’t for me […]

this is from august of 2002, and i should have done what i said i would. —– 6:40 pm simplicity and how complex it truly isn’t….. so it ends here. i’m no longer speaking of bullshit that is meaningless, i’m no longer wasting my time pouring out all the drops of incredulity from my brain, […]

Somewhere Out There- –our lady peace– Last time I talked to you, you were lonely and out of place. You were looking down on me, lost out in space. Laid underneath the stars, strung out and feeling brave. Watch the red orange glow, watch them float away. Down here in the atmosphere, garbage and city […]

so, in no particular order, here are my top ten “bad qualities” that i’ve lately been told are my downfall. 1. i have a nosering. 2. i dress funny. 3. i don’t have broad shoulders. 4. when i’m drunk i act “clingy.” 5. when i’m drunk i act “girly” but i’m not sure what that […]

i don’t have the energy to write about what’s on my mind right now…maybe later or maybe tomorrow. all of it is finally coming together though, and we’ll just have to see where it leads. i have a few more things to document and i have some things to make comparison to, and after that […]

this is the safest place to post most of my thoughts and observations about things because i can at least have them on paper in front of me so they don’t seem so jaded coming from my own lips. so many things about how i act and react in situations, and so many times i […]

sometimes even i am left with little to say…unrequited love…so be it. i wanted to think you would be special, and i know you wanted to be…but apparently you’ll be just like all the others. you won’t be special. you won’t be “the one” to behave differently. you won’t be “the one” who can step […]

im sure i’ve only made a mistake, i always do.

Guns N’ Roses Don’t Cry by Stradlin’/Rose If we could see tomorrow What of your plans No one can live in sorrow Ask all your friends Times that you took in stride They’re back in demand I was the one who’s washing Blood off your hands Don’t you cry tonight I still love you baby […]

I Loved You Once by: Alexander Pushkin (1799 – 1837) I loved you once, nor can this heart be quiet; For it would seem that love still lingers there; But do not you be further troubled by it; I would in no wise hurt you, oh, my dear. I loved you without hope, a mute […]