i had strange dreams last night, She-Hag was there, i want to say we were in my grandma’s old house, my deceased grandma. no one else was there that i remember. i remember talking with her about something, not sure what. then we climbed in bed and went to sleep, she snuggled up next to me. i had the distinction that she still had a bf, we weren’t “together” in the dream. i remember waking up in the dream and she was gone, i saw a wet towel in bed, then i got up and took a shower and got ready, and she was in the living room waiting. it was almost like both of us worked together at toys r us still, she said something about me “making her late” and giggled. who knows. i think i’m getting better about Shallow Crush too. i don’t really feel better about it, but i guess i’ve absolved myself enough to deal with it. i don’t want to end up even more bitter. all of it is just so reminiscent of my other situation, and at least She-Hag was able to give me some sense of meaning for all of it. She believed that Shallow Crush probably had a strong emotional attachment and connection to me, one that she probably won’t admit to now (which seems true so far) and that she had probably had eyes for the “other CUTER guy” for a while (we’re still on track). the flirting increased with the cute guy to the point where she started “feeling” something around him, much like the butterflies she previously felt about me (hence the emotional attachment) and when things became questionable or confrontational, she decided that she could pursue the “cuter” guy and deal with it because she was PHYSICALLY attracted to him as well, and that the emotional attraction to me just wouldn’t cut it. i suppose it mirrors the she hag’s own interpretation of our relationship, she seemingly did a lot of the same things. it’s always about how i’m not as attractive or well built as someone else but that i have every sentiment that a girl wants in her life. too bad i’m not the whole package i guess. of course i’m only guessing but it seems like a fairly reasonable explanation.