Just wanted to babble…no telling when you’ll get back on… I think I figured something out with the help of another…I was emotionally unavailable for you when we were together…and with Shallow I was emotionally intense…I was one extreme to the other….is that possibly what my problem is? Maybe I can’t find the middle of the road and show just enough that I need…. The tears have been replaced with anger and resentment at them now, it sickens me to look at him and especially her…I haven’t said a word to them in well over a week now, he emailed me right at a week of no speaking and asked what was going on, he said he wanted me to know he wasn’t avoiding me and I told him I was avoiding him. He pushed the issue and asked why, so I laid into him…I told him he said a lot of things about remaining friends with her at my wish and he never did it…he said he wouldn’t hang out with her alone and he did…he went against my trust and respect and followed her with his cock…he claims it was his “feelings.” He’d only hung out with her like two times…he’s so naïve I want to slap him. So well, I told him that there have been a handful of situations that both of them were throwing it in my face and told him that it was rude and disrespectful and that he’s betrayed the grace that I’ve given him, and that he chose her over my friendship (as did she) and so I’m giving them what they wanted. If they didn’t value my friendship or feelings, then I’m not going to be friends with either of them. I have too much faith in people, crystal…tell me why…I close my eyes and dive in just to let myself get hurt, this was nearly a repeat of my situation with you, only it happened over a couple months instead of a couple of years…and you didn’t leave for one of my best friends…isn’t that rule #1? So many people told me I shouldn’t even have to talk to him about it, if he respected my friendship he would have kept his distance and never tried to like her…I keep feeling myself slipping with these “moral” issues…the more people that do these things to me, the more I feel willing to give up all thought of respecting other guys with these things… Tell me I’m wrong, tell me something…tell me I need to stay the way I am and not turn into a prick like everyone else…