i really don’t even know how to say this, or what words to even use…i found something out yesterday that i haven’t been able to accept yet…i don’t know what to think. i guess there are times in our lives when we realize we’ve made poor decisions or decisions that could have used a bit more thought…and i guess that i’ve made one. i really wish i knew when it happened, nothing has shown up within the past year on any tests, gawd i dunno. all i know is that right now i just feel worthless and empty, like, what do i do now…how is my life going to be affected and how am i going to keep living just knowing the outcome…my head isn’t even on straight right now, i guess i just need a sounding board…i went to get tested yesterday, and something came back positive.