if only i could eloquently describe my personality in words that make sense in a nonsensical way…if only i had a “guide to daniel” book to give people when i become close to them for that person to truly see my intentions instead of making natural assumptions about my actions. therein lies the problem in my eyes, i become grouped into that stereotype of being “like everyone else” when that isn’t true, my belief structure is so radically different even i don’t understand myself sometimes. i feel lucky that some people may create a timeline in their life of “before i met daniel” and “after i met daniel” but at times i downright abhor the idea…i don’t want to be that important to someone, and i don’t want to be such a hearty comparison that others will seem so intensely different from me. ———- oh gawd how true this was and still is…i’m still a timeline and an indicator of all things different when i touch people…..i still haven’t found the understanding to know if it’s good or bad…