it seems it really wasa wwaste of my time to think that people would be dfifferent…you never are…you ask me to show you something that you’ve never seen before..and when i do you run away and think you’ll find it in someone esle…those of you that know the truth have realized you wont find it […]

i forgot, i stopped smoking again. you know, its funny…i quit smoking a few months ago because of some bitch, and things were fine. then the same bitch was the reason i started smoking again…funny how things go full circle. congrats on being my inspiration to quit…and congrats on being the ultimate cause for me […]

message to no one in particular… and guess what? nobody loves you, nobody cares. i was sent here to give you this message. oh thats right … you’re different. different than the rest. i forgot. i forgot. well fuck you, and fuck fitting into your scene fuck what you think oh yeah? well i’m the […]

Quickie:You’re seeing patterns where others see chaos. Take it to the next level. Overview:If you’ve decided to make a change, you’ll move so fast that you’ll probably scare your friends. But when has that ever stopped you? If anyone marches to the beat of their own drummer, it’s you. Why stop now? You’ve decided that […]

ok, i’ve avoided mentioning this for it only happening once, but now i dreamt it again…just weird that it’s carrying through now, i guess it’s good though because it’s the reaction i want to have and use, not the other lovey happy stupid crap that i used to dream. well, the other night in the […]

i’m becoming less defined as days go by…fading away…(you might say) i’m losing focus…kind of drifting into the abstract in terms of how i see myself sometimes i think i can see right through myself less concerned about fitting in to the world…YOUR world that is, because it doesn’t really matter anymore… none of this […]

cinco de mayo today or something, i like yesterday better. i guess just another excuse to drink. speaking of excuses to drink…i need to give a special “shout out” to a sexy young lady named lisa who’s bday is today…i think she’s turning a fresh 18, or at least we can pretend that she is […]

Overview:Are you still speaking your mind without thinking about the consequences? If the answer is yes, don’t be too hard on yourself. Every now and then, we’re all entitled to be reckless. That, of course, goes double for you.

i had an experience the other night, i haven’t had time to sit down and write about it. it was a dream i don’t want to remember, but i have to if i want to keep remembering these things. i was in my parents old trailer again, as it seems most of my horrific nightmares […]