everyone else gets their fair shot with my words. one of the D’s i knew…the one that disappears as quickly as she arrives…everytime…the one who wanted simply to feel my body…have you done the same thing? the more i look the more it seems you have…i gave you the needed emotional attention you wanted because you weren’t finding it with your other guys…and then what? you’re right back with them. and oh how similar…you simply wanted to fuck me, but never love me. and oh how it bothered you so when i turned you down that night, it was the strongest move i’ve made on someone, and evidently i should use it more often. i feel much better knowing i stopped anything from happening…because it gave ME the control over the situation, it gave ME power over things. of course i try to pretend like i’m too good to sleep with someone just for pleasure, i wanted to of course, and maybe i should have. well, you come around every few months, so…we’ll see what happens in the future. i can be indifferent about it.