i had a dream i was on SNL with billy corgan. i kept trying to crack him up and make him smile during the skits we were doing. wtf is wrong with me…i asked for bad dreams and bad terrors and i got billy corgan? cmon, you can do better than that. i guess they’re done playing with me now, once i learned to defend myself they’ve moved on…well i want them back. i want them to try again, and this time i want to see in their eyes and see just how far the hole truly goes.