i watched Garden State again (it has natalie portman in it!) and just…wanted to cry.  the amazing beauty of meeting someone who is a total stranger, finding them to complement you so well, falling purely in love and then…

would you walk away?  COULD you walk away?  i didn’t realize it the first time i watched the movie, but it’s a representation of my dream and my fairy tale.  i want to get so swept up in someone so new and so unknown, it’s a romeo and juliet moment…

i want to meet someone and have my stomach knot up, i want to meet someone and feel my heart race, i want to meet someone and have my body shiver all over.  when i kiss her i want my eyes to explode in shimmering tears of incredulity,  i want my heart to break when she says “i have to go.”  i want those things that will never happen…that won’t happen without patience.

i want to love a stranger in one single moment, and i want that stranger to love me back.  i want eyes that are excited to see me, a voice that trembles when calling me, words that stammer when speaking…and i want to be the same way.  i want to be lost in a single moment…that moment when the outside world disappears for the briefest or longest amount of time and only she and i exist.