something was strange last night…i should say this morning…i nodded off early, maybe 3am and woke up about 7:30am. i couldn’t sleep of course, so i stayed up for a couple hours, then tried to sleep again. i knew though, that doing that would only increase my chances of…well, other things. i tend to have the strongest sleep induced experiences when i follow that pattern of sleeping very little, waking up, then sleeping again. so…it happened…

it was weird…i don’t remember “falling” asleep, only keeping my eyes closed while my mind was rampant. something pulled me toward an object, or maybe i was creating images in my mind and focusing on them to pull myself into the dream. it was a nearly seamless entry, almost like i “slid” myself into the vision and i didn’t really…just start dreaming. it is something i need to try again, that’s for sure. perhaps deep meditation on a specific place or area to see if i can envision myself being there and making it happen.

anyway.

i felt my body the whole time, which was a bit annoying, because it felt like the slightest movement or overextension would wake me, as if i was just teetering on the line between consciousness and sleep. i lost it a few times though, i’d slide back and realize i was awake again and have to focus on falling back into it. i don’t think i walked anywhere, i was mostly just floating and flying, but it was more difficult than normal. i didn’t have any troubles with walls or objects, i was floating through them easily, but i was very sluggish and had trouble staying in motion. several times i’d just slow down and find myself stuck inside a wall or unable to continue moving.

there seems to be a new place i’ve found, i’ve seen it before and i can’t place where it is. typically i find myself outside of my parents’ land, but recently i’ve been seeing a new outside landscape that i don’t recognize. there are a couple of large trees and some smaller forest line, but no discernable houses or buildings. it was dark, though it was daylight outside. at one point i did end up near my parents house, but not quite. i was down the road from the house, in the trees and near the road. everything was different though, it was dark and musty, almost like it was primal…but not quite. primal is a bad word, parts of the trees seemed old, like, covered in ash or partly petrified, but they were overgrown as if it was lush and thick, like in a rainforest. something felt really wrong, like, perhaps an opposite effect. almost as if it was a negative, dark version of the normal place. it felt really uncomfortable and i slipped away from it pretty quickly.

one area i did see was slightly industrial, and had some large skyscrapers in it, but still very bleak. i think i had the most interaction there, i saw several people but no one i recognized. some of it is a blur, but i remember something being “after” me, like it wasn’t happy i was there. i do know at one point i slid inside a tall tower and couldn’t get back out. it was a large hollow tunnel, and there was someone at the very bottom of it. it resembled a well, or pit, and the person was in the bottom of it trapped, but i don’t remember what we talked about. i know that the person was distraught, slightly warning me and slightly being arrogant and intimidating, but he couldn’t get out or fly his way up to me. i was fighting to stay under, i could feel myself waking up, and i had trouble moving out of the wall and out of the tunnel. i remember staring at the tubes and such that were around me and visualizing a latch and a hinged door to one of the large pipes and eventually made it happen and pushed my way outside of it. now i believe at this point i was really waking up…

i felt myself in bed, i was fighting the urge to open my eyes and move my body, and i felt my mind start spinning. i saw a colorful tunnel of light, mostly a shade of orange and red and yellow, with an opening of pitch black at the end. i was moving very quickly through the tunnel and the opening was coming toward me. i knew my body was shaking, and i held it as long as i possibly could, but it became too violent to control. my body was resonating faster and faster as i hurled through the tunnel and i started sensing something around me. of course…it’s an entirely foreign feeling to explain, feeling the duality of your consciousness moving and also being aware of your body as two separate entities, so that alone makes it difficult to keep the sensation. i felt something to my right, a presence, and it was starting to scare me, so that wasn’t helping. it’s so hard to fight the fear that something is near, even just feeling the presence and not seeing it, and ultimately it jarred me awake. i think i was close, i never made it through the end of the tunnel but i think something big could have happened if i did. i don’t think i’ve had such a strong vibration before, i literally felt my entire body changing frequency. i’m out of practice, and it was definitely a crash course in making me remember what those things feel like. i guess i have a lot more free time now since i don’t have a set sleep schedule, maybe i’ll try it again tonight if i can get myself to wake up early and stay awake a couple hours. i was close, i know i was. i’m not sure what i was close TO, but it was something significant. i’ve never seen the tunnel before, it was almost like a vortex i suppose. if i can do it again and hold it just a little bit longer maybe i can make it to the opening and see what’s on the other side of the vortex.

or…just tell me it was a dream.