my voice of reason has ultimately left me.  i don’t want to feel so lost, but so often i do.  my one constant thing in life is…gone.  some days i just want to hear your pleasantries and tidings of good cheer, they always brightened my day.  it didn’t matter how far separated you truly were…it always made me feel so much better about myself. 

and i hate myself for still wishing i could hear those things.