just a snippet from one of my favorite movies…Chasing Amy.
pay attention boys, you might learn something.
this is dialogue between Silent Bob, Jay, and Holden. some of it i’m leaving out for brevity.

BOB
You’re chasing Amy.
I went through something like what
you’re going through. Years ago.
Same kind of thing with a girl named
Amy.
(to Holden)
So there’s me an Amy, and we’re all
inseparable, right? Just big time in
love. And then about four months in,
I ask about the ex-boyfriend. Dumb
move, I know, but you know how it is –
you don’t really want to know, but you
just have to… stupid guy bullshit.
Anyway she starts telling me all about
him – how they dated for years, lived
together, her mother likes me better,
blah, blah, blah – and I’m okay. But
then she tells me that a couple times,
he brought other people to bed with
them – menage a trois, I believe it’s
called. Now this just blows my mind.
I mean, I’m not used to that sort of
thing, right? I was raised Catholic.
So I get weirded out, and just start
blasting her, right? This is the only
way I can deal with it – by calling
her a slut, and telling her that she
was used – I mean, I’m out for blood I
want to hurt her – because I don’t
know how to deal with what I’m
feeling. And I’m like “What the fuck
is wrong with you?” and she’s telling
me that it was that time, in that
place, and she didn’t do anything
wrong, so she’s not gonna apologize.
So I tell her it’s over, and I walk.

JAY
Fucking a.
BOB
No, idiot. It was a mistake. I
wasn’t disgusted with her, I was
afraid. At that moment, I felt small –
like I’d lacked experience, like I’d
never be on her level or never be
enough for her or something.
And what I didn’t get was that she
didn’t care. She wasn’t looking for
that guy anymore. She was looking for
me. But by the time I realized this,
it was too late, you know. She’d
moved on, and all I had to show for it
was some foolish pride, which then
gave way to regret. She was the girl,
I know that now. But I pushed her
away…

So I’ve spent every day since then
chasing Amy…
(takes a drag from his smoke)
So to speak.