all i thought of was her. shopping…thoughts of next year bounced through my head…thoughts of us giggling and smiling while buying xmas decorations together, picking out small things to remind us of our times…those “first” ornaments that we’ll pick to signify our first holiday we get to spend together… i saw it so clearly in […]

merry xmas, happy festivus, happy hannukah….and everything else going on around the world and right here at home. blessed be!

i’m still watching you shimmer and shine in the sky…as far away as you are. i’m watching you burn with the other stars…and i’m making my wish that you return to me quickly, because it kills me to see you so far in the heavens and so out of reach… ——– ~Princess of Pain~ You […]

wow…as i’m erasing junk mail, i came across this little beauty. here, in it’s entirety…some random spam junk mail i got. i honestly can’t figure out what the hell this is meant to say: Our upgraded model now offers parallel digital options. Our upgraded model now offers synchronised strategic alignment. An asteroid over an ocean […]

my heart dies ever so slightly every time i watch you walk away…   ———   thomas dunlap ….yeah…i kinda do really… Reply5 years ago thomas dunlap grow a set fag. Reply5 years ago Blake Cover If you leave, don’t leave now Please don’t take my heart away Promise me just one more night Then […]

no…nothing personal to this one at all, though at many times in the past i have been this guy.  i just thought some of it was too cute to pass up.  it just sounds like some shit i’d have written myself 😉   I’m sorry that i bought you roses to tell you that i […]

and another song post.  there is so much desperation in these words, such hopelessness…pain…and a taste of subtle bitterness.  it’s lovely…it melts in my mouth when i want to FEEL something.  right now i want to feel sad.  i DO feel sad.  this…is the sadness of being happy, however, not the other kind.  the sadness […]

i’m always such a fucking jackass. only days ago i told myself i wouldn’t let my insecurity get the best of me…and what do i do… and then only alienate the situation further by doing it.   i hate having you believe that i’m no different than anyone else.

had an old friend ask me a question about the Celestine Prophecy.  she asked which Control Drama type i think she is, and it made me want to brush up a little, so here it is.  this is an excerpt from “The Celestine Prophecy:  An Experiential Guide” about control dramas. — Intimidator Intimidators get everyone […]

*something i just…muddled together a couple years ago. had a friend that…was in a shitty relationship…never wanted to see the truth about it, and…this is what i came up with when i tried to repeat what she was telling me* —————————– you belittle me you treat me like a child you make it my fault […]