i’ve realized…i’m slipping.

i’m letting others win.  i’ve wanted to believe i’m staying on top, and i’m not.  i’ve let so many subtle things and comments dissuade me from upholding my self-image and i need to put a stop to it NOW.  i’ve worked too damn hard to raise myself to where i am after losing myself to so much of this same bullshit.  i despise the comparisons.

i don’t care if you think you look better than me.

i don’t care if you are more successful.

i don’t care if you have more security.

i don’t care if you wear a hemp necklace and a college football cap.

i also don’t care how much bigger you are and how easily you could kick my ass.

by simply allowing these outside comments to affect me…i’m giving vindication.  and i’m done.  it’s eating away at me, and it’s weakening me.  i’m stronger than this…and hardly do i let these things bother me.  i’ve learned this lesson a long time ago, and i have no need to repeat it.  i’m better than you in every way, every possible pretentious way, and there is no way that you could dare compete with that.

how horridly unattractive it is to be so pompous, right?  no.  i just don’t play second fiddle.  i never have, and i won’t start.  i’m first, and i won’t fall for the subtle manipulation or passive-aggressive bullshit.  the more i’m talked about, the bigger i get.  in the attempt to mock or discredit me, i’m only growing in the hearts of those you wish to woo.  keep pressing…i want to consume your every thought, your every action…everything you do will soon revolve around MY life instead of your own…or does it already?

there’s MUCH more than a thin line between you and me, and there’s certainly no comparison.  i’m keeping my place on top.