i can’t sleep.  images and thoughts in my head are just keeping me awake…and my apathy wants to grow so badly right now, it is such a delicate balance.  of course, i always seem to get this way around my birthday.

my words and my voice are what keep me strong…and they’re stifled right now.  it’s difficult.  so many days i want to say things, express things, praise things…but i can’t.  my fantasies and dreams are still kept at bay inside my head…

maybe i’m just anticipating a huge explosion in the next few days.  maybe i’m just dying for the day that it’s my turn to be acknowledged.  i hope i make you proud.

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Random
drink more. It helps. sleep. it helps sleep.
Reply5 years ago

thomas dunlap
it doesnt have to be…..i mean , if you got ’em it doesnt have to be.

speaking of, have you found yours yet?
Reply5 years ago

thomas dunlap
wow!! you 2? i thought i was the only one. i cant tell you how big of a relief that is. such a huge weight off my shoulders.
actually, i do that not just when i cant sleep, but when i can as well.
Reply5 years ago

thomas dunlap
when i cant sleep, i roll a fat fucking joint, pop in a fuck flick, wax the candlestick, and thats seems to do it.
Reply5 years ago

~Princess of Pain~
Darlin…Darlin…Darlin….say what you need. Don’t let anyone stifle you!
Stop stressing out. Things are looking up & you know that. I have all the confidence in the world in you! You are amazing….wait….you already know that right!?!?!?
The birthday thing…..it is going to be fantastic. I promise. I will make sure.
Reply5 years ago