i know it kills you each time you realize i’m not perfect.
i stumble like the rest of them, i have shitty emotions that i can’t always hide. sometimes i wish i could. but please continue believing in me…you’re one of very few that has, and i don’t want to lose that. i got tripped up over something insignificant last night and i’ve bothered you. i wish that weren’t the case.
hearing your voice as you were drunkenly crying out for me…”i want my daniel…i want my daniel…” it was magnificent and powerful, it made me weak, it made me realize how truly lucky i am to have someone like you. it made me feel special in a way that NO ONE else has ever done, NO ONE. hearing your voice like that…i simply knew everything was as it should be, that my path has led me to you, and that i’ll do everything in my power not to lose you.
you told me that i’d keep you warm, that i would take care of you, that i would make everything better if i were just there with you…it was all i needed to hear to make me realize how silly i was being. without absence, we can’t grow fonder. you stayed on the phone with me over an hour simply telling me how wonderful i was….”i just want my daniel” as you cried…
and what do i do? i say something stupid. i say something selfish. always seems like i do that, and it makes you realize i’m not as perfect as you believed. it was a simple mistake, one that i didn’t even need to make.
please…just forgive me.
“are you my daniel?”
“yes, i’m your daniel, i’m here baby, everything is going to be fine.”