3:36 am and i can’t sleep. my thoughts always return to one person no matter how hard i’ve tried. my heart has been in my throat all evening, it has killed me to be so far away…don’t think that it hasn’t. my arms are empty tonight, all i’ve done is toss and turn when i’ve tried to sleep. i fear i can no longer sleep alone.
and what does it mean? who knows. normally i would say “maybe it’s just me” but i don’t believe that’s true. i know she is doing the same thing. so many words to wonder about…are they to me?
where is my clarity…where is my understanding…so many things have escaped me lately and kept me in a spiral. maybe i’ll find my two feet again…but for now, i’m sick from missing her. i just want to close my eyes and wash it all away under the guise of slumber.
sadly though, i know, my heart and mind won’t stop even when i sleep. even if i DO sleep. and my second day of work…i’m going to be sick and exhausted.
my heart is forever in your hands.
my path is still open, there’s still room…right beside me.
…just to hear your voice…..