Wrap your skeleton around me
Weld your bones to mine
I need more than regular involvement
I need you to perform a miracle on me
Somehow still the horror inside
Please help me
I don’t want to die screaming
I don’t know if you can do it
Hold me in a violent grip
Outsmart me
I need something
A vacancy is growing inside me that I can’t control
Fuck it
Don’t even try
I’ll just abuse you
It’s all I know
I’m just afraid that I’ll hurt you
More than I already have

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I’ll get the wrong idea
If you’re kind to me
I’ll start to make things up in my head
I’ll think you’ll want me
I’ll hurt myself trying to please you
It won’t be real
It will all be in my head
I won’t be able to stop lying to myself
I will cut myself to pieces again and again
I won’t feel it
You can watch

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You see I did it
I made something out of myself
I am a slave to my parents
I am a slave to my horror
I mutilate myself without their help
You can see it in major cities everywhere
I didn’t blow it
I did good can’t you see
I took the punishment out on the road
I don’t need them to fuck me up
I can do it to myself real well now
I have it down to a science
I don’t know how I’ll end up
I don’t want to know anymore
I’m afraid of the nightmare I’ve become
I live it slickly and darkly
My saliva is black
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