my old friend john…

all those hours spent on our long bus ride to and from school, listening to all that heavy metal…and loudly, i might add…forcing everyone else to listen as well…gwar, metallica, guns n roses…and our awesome rendition of tesla’s remake of “signs” and us recognizing that we’re the “long haired freaky people.”

both of us being scrawny little bastards in junior high and trying to carry bags as big as us full of all our schoolbooks…hah. you’d think it woulda built SOME muscle, right? never 🙂

and where did the time go after high school?

you moved off, we lost touch…and so recently you came back, and it sucks that we didn’t hang out more. of course, we always want to say that when we lose someone, but i don’t think it makes it any less valid. i’m glad you came to my bday party…

and now…you won’t make it to my next bday, and i won’t make it to yours. i hate my friends being taken away. we grew up together, and this isn’t supposed to happen.

one minute…i take for granted that someone will be there…and the next…i get a phone call about a tragic accident and now i’m never going to see my friend again.

it always seems like such a dream, that these things don’t really happen. but they do. sigh. i’ve been lucky to not have this happen much in my life. i love you john, even though we really weren’t all that close anymore…but all those years count for something.

i’m not ready for tomorrow.

i’m not ready to deal with this face to face.

i’m going to break down, and i’m supposed to be the one to lean on…i can’t be strong for anyone tomorrow, i’m sorry, i know you’ll all understand…but i just won’t have it in me.

john, you remind us that we are human, that we are easily damaged, that we are easily broken. you remind us that we can be taken away at a moment’s notice. you remind us that we are fallible. you remind us that we always say we’re going to cherish the time we have with others, yet we always fall back in our patterns and never live up to those words.

i will see you for the last time tomorrow my friend. you’ll always be in my heart and in my mind, and you will be missed by so many. your words, your smile, your heart. blessed be, my old friend.

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Tisha Penn
When I heard about that sweet, wonderful friend I grew up with I was in shock. I am still in shock, along with so many others. Daniel, I wish I could be there with you. I am in Nebraska and heard too late. I have, along with others, many stories that I would be happy to share with you my dear friend Daniel. So if you EVER want to send me a message or call me, I will send you my cell number. I am with everyone in spirit and so wish I could be there to blow my kiss to my blessed friend John goodbye.

God be with everyone, and R.I.P. John, we will always love and think of you!!
Reply2 years ago

Lisa Calloway
Daniel, I wish I could take away your pain. All I can do is be here for you. Any time you want to talk about John, I’ll talk with you. I have some good stories to share with you of the few times he and I spent together when he moved back to Oklahoma and the conversations he and I have had over the past year. We can plan a happy hour next week if you’d like… a tribute to John…

Just like New said, John was the happiest he’s been in a while during this past month. I’m glad he was happy…

Daniel, you’re a great friend to many. Thanks for being such a great friend to me. I love you.
Reply2 years ago

The Dalai Mama
I love you, Daniel. We can’t always be strong. I won’t be. My heart is broken. My parents are heartbroken. He loved you and distance didn’t matter to him. You were still one of his dearest friends and always will be. He always asked about you. I still can’t wrap my mind around this. I made a copy of a picture of us before the NIN concert in 1995 and I will give it to you tomorrow when I see you.
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Xx*FemCore*xX
I’m here if you need me. Come get me, call me, text me-anything you need let me know.
I love you
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