How far must we fall?  How long must we continue falling?  It’s so disappointing to watch those with such a loss of identity to so pitifully drift from crowd to crowd trying to determine just who they are.  Is this why I’m the one to blame?  Is this why I’m the biggest enemy?  Sadly I’ve recently seen this story over and over, told by so many people, and I can’t believe I never noticed it.

One can get lost inside a friendship or relationship, and then after a certain time, they grow this resentment for the other person because THEY don’t know who they are.  And after that certain amount of time, that resentment then causes them to start hearing key words from old friends, and those words become more and more influential.  Those influential words then become dangerous, and have even caused that person to pull violently away from friendships thinking that they need to be a part of “that” group because “that” is their identity.

Those groups of friends can somehow convince a person that “they” are the crowd that person needs to belong in, and that “their” life is so much better than what that person has right now, and in a way it just makes me feel sad for them.  I’m never one to say “my” group is best, or another is best, and of course I fully support someone exploring their soul…but when those groups play on those people with such low self-esteem and insecurity…that’s when I can’t agree that they are doing anything positive.  None of you need a friend or group of friends to find your identity.  Be yourself and be who you are.  If they don’t like it, that’s their loss.  Be true to yourself and don’t let your friends convince you what is best in your life.

I wish I could inspire confidence.  I do believe on some level that I have, at least for some, but I must be able to take it away as well.  With the power to give, there’s always the power to remove.  I know with my personality I can be seen as abrasive, and can seem to be demanding and hold expectations that are frustrating to try to achieve, but I sincerely only want the best for people.  I only want people to be standing on their own two feet, without my help.  I only want to be there at the end of the day to be supportive.

And as was spoken to me so many years ago, perhaps that’s all I really need from someone.  I only want and need someone to be there to support me at the end of the day.