when drastic things are going on in life, for some idiotic reason i find myself thinking and missing those people that were once so close to me…and i haven’t fully understood why…those faces from the past that i became such close friends with, or the ones that held more…my danielle, my dear crystal, and even with all the bitterness, i think of jamie…not as Shallow, but as the girl i was great friends with and close to, the person i knew before the dire changes in her soul. crystal, you know me best…of anyone i still have around…i wish i had you to hug me and tell me things were ok, for the life of me i can’t think of another person that could do it and make me believe it was true. danielle, we were great friends…then you had to go out and find your own life and take my lessons with you, so we aren’t as close as we once were…and jamie, well…you were a great friend to me and i valued that friendship, it’s unfortunate things and choices were made that severed those ties. danya…you’re so busy lately and you have enough to worry about without me. i just don’t know…and i hate even mentioning some of those names. call it a moment of weakness yet again.