not really. but a fun word to say. i’m tired…i’m worn…i want to sleep for days and not think of anyone but myself…but it won’t happen. all my thoughts constantly turn to so many other people…and yet i wish to be so selfish and i can’t even be selfish about being selfish…it’s always about everyone else. not sure when i’ll fully learn…but i’m sure i’ll fall several more times before i fully believe that they aren’t worth it. i’m wondering how far away the breaking point is…the time and place when it all converges back into the center and things once again spiral out of their paths and flop into everything around them, damaging the ones not even involved… time will always catch up.