I’m gnawing on the knowledge That I have been burnt And I’m learning things that I Should’ve already learnt Everyone I ever knew Was so kind and coy I was with a girl But it felt like I was with a boy I can’t even remember If we were lovers Or if I just wanted to But I held her in my arms I held her in my arms I held her in my arms But it wasn’t you I will not kill The one thing that I love In this world of wreckage I look above Help me Lord Help me understand What it means to be a boy What it means to be a man I can’t even remember If we were lovers Or if I just wanted to But I held her in my arms I held her in my arms I held her in my arms But it wasn’t you