so, i confronted someone about the rumor i heard, and it was derailed. i had faith that the person truly didn’t say those things, but you never can tell. i lived with someone for 2 years and had no idea that they would leave on some simple whim….you just don’t know people. Aquarius Fri Aug. 16, 2002 by Astrocenter.com Memories of a recent romantic evening with someone very special could be filling your heart and mind right now. You probably thrill at the recollection, but at the same time it may excite your insecurities. Does this person still feel the same? Will such a wonderful evening happen again? Don’t let your doubts get the best of you. Go with the flow and see where it takes you. ….horoscopes can be so lame sometimes….. here i am and you’re a rocket queen…. ——— ok, something needs to change here, i’ve tried and tried so much to truly hate the beast called She-hag, and it is becoming more difficult. i miss her, i really do. she was a part of my life for so long, we grew together, we shared together. i have no respect for her and the way things were handled, but part of me just wants to see her face and hear her voice, simply to know that it wasn’t all a bad dream, that the happiness and the fucking feotid pain did happen… this emotional bullshit is supposed to disappear, i don’t want these feelings anymore, i don’t want to feel for the past, i don’t want to feel for the present….i want things simple, simple and irrelevant like the way they were…simple to where i don’t have to express anything on my mind, simple where i can forget all the ideas and presumptions that even exist. love doesn’t exist, not the way the world believes it. any time a connection is made between two kindred souls it is simply a friendship….and when two people get overly excited about superficial attributes and crave physical contact then it becomes relationship material….go figure. i am just simply “good enough.” no better, no worse…because if i’m better, then i’m arrogant….if i’m worse, then i’m self-loathing. if i’m “good enough” then i don’t get noticed….so who wins? i’d rather be myself than keep up a facade. my rejection continues, she-hag scores another point in naming me “more friendship material than boyfriend material.” good call, she-hag, maybe you aren’t as stupid as i want to call you. so, perhaps tonight that shining soul will reveal itself to me, the one that i’m SUPPOSED to find, perhaps i will encounter no more sidetracks and i can keep my eyes on the path that i should be taking. nobody’s real.