and another song post.  there is so much desperation in these words, such hopelessness…pain…and a taste of subtle bitterness.  it’s lovely…it melts in my mouth when i want to FEEL something.  right now i want to feel sad.  i DO feel sad.  this…is the sadness of being happy, however, not the other kind.  the sadness you feel when you want something so badly that it hurts.  the sadness of missing someone, the sadness of knowing they’re so far away…my heart breaks and mends every day, at least for now.  hopefully it won’t be much longer.

i’m so much happier now…happier than i’ve been in such a long time.  i’ll scream it from the mountains soon enough…but for now, it’s safer that i hold my tongue and swallow my words.  you’ll hear them soon enough.  but for now…i smile with my sadness and envelop myself in the purest of emotions…

xoxo.

—-Black Lab—  “Tell Me What To Say”

Tell me what to say
And I will say it to you…

I take one for the heartbreak
One for the headache
Two for the constant tears
I take one for the blindness
One for the foolishness
Trying to keep you here

I would stop waiting
Stop crying
Stop breathing in, too
While you stay away so long

I would stop calling
Stop writing
Stop faking
Stop denying you’re as good as gone
But I dunno

So you just tell me what to say
And I will say it to you
I would do it for you
I would burn this house down

Tell me what to say
And I will say it to you
I would do what you do
I would burn us to the ground

Even on weekdays
Even on Sunday
Even in the blackest nights
Even when you touch me
I know you don’t love me
And, I, can’t make it right

I would stop waiting
Stop walking
Stop trying to start you talking
Or say your old goodbyes

I would stop drinking
Stop feeling
Breakdown and start believing
You might change your mind
Well, I dunno

So you just tell what to say
And I will say it to you
I would do it for you
I would burn this house down
Tell me what to say
And I will say it to you
I would do what you do
I would burn us to the ground

Hey-e-e-ey, well, I dunno
So you just tell me what to say
And I’ll say it to you
I would do it for you
I would burn this house down

Tell me what to say
And I will say it to you
I would do it for you
I would burn us to the ground…