the things i do when i drink…well, this time, i’ve went back and found snippets of conversations from years past…and decided to share any knowledge that they possess. most likely a silly idea i’m sure, but i’m full of silly ideas. without further adieu, from 2003 to as recent as early 2006…
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such a beautiful talent shouldn’t go to waste……
you’re not a monster…
I don’t think anyone can fill the voids of past loved ones, and I’m sure you shouldn’t try, just make new spaces for the new ones.
Maybe you just needed someone to lean on like everyone is now doing to you for emotional support you know. It makes me sad because I feel like I care for you and if I could really be there for you, you might be in a better place right now you know. I feel like it’s my fault and still is. I’m always crossing my fingers someone decent will come along to be there for you. I get annoyed time after time hearing about these obvious bitches I just wanna slap in their oblivious little faces to quit wasting your time.
They tell you when they have something bad to say in comparison about their loveys right? What I think is this.. they think you are better for that moment. When they can vent about why they are pissed at their loveys to someone who they are not pissed at, then you are obviously better for the moment. Do you still think in their eyes you are better when you run into them with their lovey at best buy? No, they are happy with the one they love and hope that they will someday be able to talk to them about why they are mad, instead of you.
Maybe your not really getting stood up for you, maybe the girls are self conscious, and scared to take that next step. You know it’s always easier to avoid a situation and hide than to confront. Most people aren’t as bold as you. So point, it’s not you, it’s them.
I asked for the opposite of you, I got what I asked for..another me. I keep telling myself he will grow up soon, and change, but you know who’s kidding themselves. I find it hard enough to break up a relationship without ties. I’ve decided this must be how it is for me. If there is a soulmate out there for me, someone must have stolen him, as I am engaged to someone elses. Isn’t that a scary thought. Just as I am holding onto someone elses sm, in a desperate hope he will change into mine, my real soul mate might be out there unhappily married to another. Scary thought?
Why are you asking me if you’re arrogant, wasn’t it you that always said it? I can tell you this. You like it when people talk about you. You act like you don’t like the attention to an extent, but you seem to thrive on it in reality. You like to have someone else there if some random person remembers you just to say “see that always happens, people just remember me” like hey look at me i stand out. All along that’s what you want isn’t it? to stand out-be noticed? Is it just not really in the way you wanted all along? I think if one morning you woke up and no one noticed you anymore or remembered walking by you in the mall or something you would just wither away. It’s like your life source.
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insight? possibly. drunk? nearly. let’s see where else this night takes me…

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Jayme
Which is better? insightful or drunk? And how is that I always feel we are insightful while drunk? Then I can’t remember a damn thing the next day. Sounds like some pretty good convos from years past.
Reply4 years ago

Christina Replogle
I had always thought about the Soul mate thing too… but now I did find him… Even if he pisses me off to no end!!!! lol I guess that is what I needed.
Reply4 years ago

Walela
Wow, a lot of that sounds like stuff I would or have said to you! I liked it, it shows insight into how people perceive you but don’t reflect on it too much.
Reply4 years ago