so halloween came and went….i got to wear my austin powers outfit again, i hadn’t worn it since 1999….there were some fateful events associated with that night that i hate even remembering. this year was indubitably better, not a thing went wrong….well, except i fucked up a bit and ran off without saying anything to stacey….i had honestly thought she saw what i was doing, but she hadn’t, so my fault, and i’m sorry 🙁 we had a lot of fun, i ran into some crazy cats i hadn’t seen in a long time, saw an old friend i hadn’t seen in AGES, saw an old high school friend, met up with some other friends from high school…just a good ole time. my secluded weekend has begun, and i get to spend it all with stacey….i fall for her more and more each day, she is so gd understanding and compassionate, we just click soooo well together. this is the kind of relationship i’ve always desired to find and be a part of, and the levels we respond to each other is definitely higher than what i’ve had before. things are so much fun and yet so relaxed, i don’t feel any of the weird tugs at my heart or emotions that are normally associated with other relationships, it’s like both of us have just started giving our everything and we are both being appreciative and reciprocating each other’s feelings all the time. it is so unbelievably nice to sleep next to a soul again, especially one so caring and loving….it is nice to have contact with flesh again, and much nicer to have it with someone i can truly call a companion. things are blissful and exciting right now, my life is finally back to a high point. i guess the odd part is WHY THE FUCK AM I AWAKE? we went to sleep at like 3am and i just woke up, i can’t go back to sleep….i’m just not tired or something. maybe being next to something so powerful has just reawakened some things deep in my soul and is making me full of energy to the point where i don’t feel i need to sleep right now….either way, i have had the hugest smile on my face for the past (near) 3 weeks since i met her. she is all i could have ever asked for and so much more. as i gaze into her eyes i feel so much beauty and yet so much fear, things just seem so damn natural with her it is uncanny, almost like it was always HER that i was seeking, and everything else was simply preparing me to do so. ah well, i can at least go watch her sleep even though i can’t, perhaps that’s why i’m awake, maybe she needs someone to watch over her right now…. goodnight moon…….goodnight air…….. see you in my dreams, and blessed be.