i asked a few questions tonight, and got a few answers that i found at least comforting. it’s nice to know that certain things would have been said regardless of intoxication, and only that the beer helps to give the courage to say them…. 🙂 oh, and i smoked my last cigarette…i’ve now officially stopped smoking. ….thanks for the hug…..i really was yearning for it…..to at least feel you close if only for a second.