Iniquity of Flitzanu

i need a car. my head hurts from withdrawal. i’m to the ear pops when i move my head. whatever. and i’m detaching from a lot of people and a lot of things. probably for the best right now.

i know i said i thought i was done making my “day” posts, but today was very noticeably painful. well, ok, day 12, withdrawal headache is back to being intense. that’s about it. not too blinding, but very tight around my temples. but…otherwise…that’s my only symptom i’m feeling. well, and a bit of apathy and […]

well, i’m to the point of being bored of detailing these days, as the first few days were exciting, and now nothing new or noticeable is really going on. i’m tired as fuck today though, i passed out at like midnight last night and woke up at like 10:10am just in time to get mcds […]

nothing really to report. started half doses today. i’m hungover, hot, sweaty, and tired. more later.

fuck. went to bed at 430am, long night, not an enjoyable one other than the company i was with. today has nothing to do with meds…i’m so tired i wouldn’t notice anyway 🙂 today is another off day though, i’m doing pretty well, very little withdrawal anymore. may go ahead and drop to half doses […]

there’s a giant ass “daddy long legs” spider in my shower. actually two of them. i think i will call them Johnny and Tambourine.

day 8…off again today. not feeling much withdrawal, just a bit hazy. definitely a noticeable amount of disappointment and depression today, i’m sure i’m gonna swing pretty heavy over the next few weeks. however, the feelings of being elated and excited are enough to balance out the depression and anxiety feelings. it’s nice to have […]

i’m thinking of going back to blonde for a while. it’s summertime, right? blondes have more fun. i feel too…blah. i need more clothes too. hell, i need a girl to go shopping with, first and foremost. it’s no fun alone.

ok, so i watched star wars ep 4-6 this weekend (again) and in the vein of “Clerks” and discussing some flaws in the culture and actions (ala contract workers building the death star vs imperial stormtroopers) i noticed something in Empire. ok, everyone knows how to knock out an AT-AT. you need a snowspeeder to […]

here we are at day 7. today is an “on” day, i’m a little jittery, but i had a lot of caffeine too. sometimes it’s hard to tell which is affecting me, the meds or outside influences. my stomach is a mess again today too. i think i’ve narrowed that down though, i got this […]