Author Archives: flitzanu

who knows. old thoughts from a tattered insomniac.

i can’t sleep.  i have a new muse, i have new inspiration, but i can’t find the words i want to say.  my words are failing right now, and i’ve looked to the past for motivation.  in doing so, i found a piece of apathy and distraction i thought i’d share. –june 23, 2003—————————- i […]

self-improvement is masturbation.

Dust Brothers — This Is Your Life (fight club soundtrack) And you open the door and you step inside Were inside our hearts Now imagine your pain is a white ball of healing light That’s right your pain, the pain of self is a white ball of healing lightI don’t think soThis is your life […]

my fantastical year in review.

1.What did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before? met more new people and friends in 2006 than my entire life. 2. Did you keep your New Year’s Resolutions, and will you make more for next year? sadly no, my one goal i’d set was not achieved. 3. Did anyone close to you give […]

you really wanna play?

watching you from across the table…your eyes nervously glancing around, trying to stare without seeming obvious…as your lips dance around the straw to your half-finished drink.  i want to take you home with me.  i’ve counted the times you’ve lightly bit your bottom lip as you looked at me, the quiet, shy smile that you […]

and still i’m alone.

my voice of reason has ultimately left me.  i don’t want to feel so lost, but so often i do.  my one constant thing in life is…gone.  some days i just want to hear your pleasantries and tidings of good cheer, they always brightened my day.  it didn’t matter how far separated you truly were…it […]

chasing amy.

just a snippet from one of my favorite movies…Chasing Amy. pay attention boys, you might learn something. this is dialogue between Silent Bob, Jay, and Holden. some of it i’m leaving out for brevity. BOB You’re chasing Amy. I went through something like what you’re going through. Years ago. Same kind of thing with a […]

agape?

Your Love Style is Agape You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn’t really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What’s Your Love […]

tool songs!

(tool/rollins) if i let you, you would make me destroy myself in order to survive you, i must first survive myself i can sink no further, and i cannot forgive you there’s no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you ive gone to great lenghts to expand my threshold of pain […]

i’m…different again.

my hair is back to black. so…now you people have to actually recognize me for ME, not for my bright red hair. carry on.

upcoming tidings of good cheer….

i’m going to add a few of my favorite xmas songs, so…enjoy my…interesting taste. soon, not yet. give me time to add them. *edit…i’ve added 3 of them via a flash mp3 player to my profile. i know some of you may not like them, so be warned!*