I realized the other day, that you’ve taken away my Halloween spirit. I didn’t have the urge 6 months ago, and the urge has not returned for this year. It’s maddening. I can’t believe I didn’t notice this before. All I can do at this point is keep fighting to find it again. It is […]
I think i felt my sleep issue last night. It seems to be my level of consciousness. I’m not sleeping deeply enough, or, my brain is staying awake. I felt myself sleeping, but i was still awake. And I’m probably one of few to actually understand that feeling.
I guess the worst part of someone presuming to hate and/or never speaking to me again is remembering every day that there must truly be a dangerous part of me. I don’t like believing that part of me exists; i especially don’t like admitting it exists.
Some days i really miss the lives I’ve lost. Things certainly seemed much brighter.
The one thing that so often cuts my Hubris is vodka. The only time i find myself weak is after drinking, and in that weakness, i relinquish all my power through simple texts and facebook posts. If only there was a breathalyzer for using a phone after a night out. The problem with this weakness […]
Some days, some moments. I still feel it in my veins. Perhaps i should call it poison…but that’s not entirely fair. This morning i realized i’d stopped feeling the traces when walking hallways at work. That alone was enough to drive me mad, but now I’m not sure when I quit noticing. I admit, sometimes […]
I used to think your actions were so heartless and vile; the manner you walked out seemed so harsh. I was recanting the tale today as an example and for advice, and in doing so, I realized your method was virtually flawless and possibly the most mature method to leave a situation like that. You […]
I want your last words to be “just fucking leave me alone.” I want that to be all you remember, and all that I was worth to you. It fucking kills me that I care about you. I break every night with you in my dreams. Why can you not just go away and […]
All bullshit. Fucked up bullshit. No one in their right mind would believe it. They only want someone to be in the same shitty predicament as themselves, and that’s nothing I can defend. Choose your own battles and who you defend. Perhaps it’s true. I’m the one up at 330am still losing sleep. I’m […]
You’ve officially crossed the fucking line. Don’t knock on the door of a monster, because the monster may just knock back. You’ve been spared thus far, don’t tempt being devoured. I know every single word to drop you to your knees. And even still… …my bed is the one place I still fear, the […]
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